It's been a long time hasn't it? Well my apologies blogger friends but after successfully making the trip back to the Evergreen State I fell into the black hole my home normally creates. The moment I made it "home" the renovation on my room began. Granted, my fervor was most likely brought on by the sudden lonliness in being in a house by myself for hours on end but it did get the job done quickly, meaning I now have a space to work, sleep and generally feel human in.
However upon the creation of my personal space everything bottomed out. It's so different here! In New York I had actually built up a support system of friends for the most part I could trust, folks who loved art and respected it. Since I'm going to be attending the local University in the fall the common question posed by family and family friends is an excited "what are you majoring in? Bussiness? International Communications?" and I have to let them down, and then get borderline angry at them for being so disrespectful. It's hard to come back to a place that has been secretly thinking you've been throwing your life away in the frivolous pursuit of a passion! Of course it's not too disheartening when I look in on their lives of chronic unhappiness. Atleast on the East Coast one could do unhappiness in self-deprecating style :)
The absolute hardest thing though is that all the inspirational people I had to leave are just going to continue on living, stocking the books, getting into trouble, going to the beach, getting jobs, completing thesis, puking on shoes, eating pasta, sunbathing on roofs, having midnight chats, all without me.
I am just a pile of jealous.
So now I'm just trying to puke on some shoes myself, and not forget who I am, not to turn grey without all the easily accessible color and keep in touch but not be dependant upon old connections. That's not too hard right? Right.
God what a downer right? Thats not even my intention, it's just that I've hauled my butt out from my cave to sit in a Starbucks in the hopes of actually accomplishing something, and it's working! Haha, now that the venoms out a little I can tell you guys that I do have a new illustration I did for my friend's Monster Blog. Am still trying to hunt down a scanner so that should be up in the next day or so, and am just going to continue working on different projects to keep my art chops up. But also start just writing about things again, because there's something about just opening the floodgates that untangles a whole lot. PLUS it's fun as balls lol
Alright, Later Gators!