We're not sure what kind of love this is.

Originally this piece was meant to be part of a series at least three pieces long about dominance, both sexual and social. After sketching out the images that were to follow I realized they were just cute pornagraphy haha which of course I really like but didn't fit in with this first image which loosely dealt with obediance and waiting. Maybe later I'll post some more naughty bits since as seedlings they looked pretty compellingly dirty and exploitative.

Special thanks to Morgan Conley, who last time we hung out showed me how to make it so you can color BEHIND your inked work. Have been asking around for literally ages on how to do this but nobody was ever able to give a straight answer! Was so excited, because it's really very important to be able to preserve the original drawing in all it's texture and minute mistakes and not just throw it all away in exchange for a clean yet fingerprintless line art thats only meant to hold robotically filled color.

Also, another friend Andrew Werner, reminded me that one of the perks of digital art work is how easily textures and colors can be spliced in. Collage used to seem very dishonest to me and I was closed to it's possibilities because egotistically I wanted to be able to take credit for every single aspect of what I created. As my computer slowly becomes a holding bank for stolen images it has become undeniable how important of a relationship my generation has with photography and video. That even if I wasn't directly using imagery in my pictures I was just as much of an image burgler as anyone else.

Quick fact: the background is blown up pixelated parts of colors found in photographs of the red light district in Amsterdam.

woman white

A Soft Spot for...

guess who?

shamble heads

These women, they're kind of like weathervanes. Originally they were supposed to be really graphic and sterile so the computer seemed like the obvious choice but the process wasn't that fun. Also I was unsure of where the image was going as a whole. Here is also a watercolor version that became a little bit more stormy.

Wimps

How did I get in this rut? When did I get so lazy? Is it laziness or just plain disinterest? Whats the point of exploring personal issues when nothing ever seems to change or get solved? Why draw? Am I just a frankenstein composite of a bunch of better and more interesting people? Does leaving SVA take away my merit as an artist? AM I AN ARTIST AT ALL? Is it giving up if I just want to go to school and learn about China for awhile?

Time for a sabbatical. The Blog and I have to air out.

Garbage Girl

Boobies got folds yo.

The other day I was watching that documentary/ film about the four different babies growing up around the world, appropriately titled Babies. One of the kids was from the Himba tribe in Namibia where the women coat their bodies and hair in a red clay that not only tints them a beautiful earthy crimson but also protects them from the sun that constantly beats down on them. They're jewlery is also very practical, particularly their tall metal anklets that protect their shins from poisonous snake bites! Plus the baby boys have these adorable little braided mohawks. Overall visually the tribe is visually fascinating and has earned a steady stream of tourists that borderline fetishize the proud women who walk around bare-chested regardless of age or body type.

And who can bloody blame them! I wish I could walk around shirtless, or at least wear sheer clothing. In New York it was actually legal, but how could one even fathom it when just wearing a skirt garners so much innapropriate male attention? How much healthier would the world be if women were allowed to bare it all without the fear of a sharp pinch or even sharper yelps? Though giant breast implants are now on the outs trend wise (hurrah!), what a breast actually looks like seems to still be a mystery to most. Since women arn't encouraged to be shown the breasts and bodies of others (because of society's rampant fear of homosexuality or honest sexuality of any kind) everyone just walks around thinking they're hella freaky and constantly apologizing, when really they're totally fine. Better than fine, BANGIN'!

At some point western (primarily American) culture decided that it was unnatural and unnatractive to be human... aaaannnddd to be alive.

It's wrong. They're wrong. The end.

Nervous Greetings

Ok, so grey tones and simplicity are a good thing heh.

Spain.

Just found these while cleaning!

No more apologies

Lots of Lions

Thought I'd try out my *cough* parent's *cough* new scanner on a little water color warm up I did awhile back thats just been tacked up above my desk for personal pleasure. Currently I've been finding prisms, diamond shapes and partially transparent substances really visually interesting, sort of to the point where its become like an obsession. Anything that allows for the warping of light really. Fleating apparations. If it had to be explained a prime example would be that burst of untouchable color out of the corner of your eye that blips quietly out of existence when you turn your head. Or when you see the tips of your own eyelashes.

(The) Last Summer

1) Deadbeat Summer- Neon Indian

2) Instrumental- Doug Martsch

3) He Took Her to a Movie- Ladytron

4) The Moon Asked the Crown- CocoRosie

5) Summerboy- Lady Gaga

6) Heart of Glass- Blondie

7) Snowfall- George Shearing

8) Giddy Giddy Carousel- Death in June

9) Bastards of Young- The Replacements

10) Scream Walk- Street Chant

11) Teenage Dirtbag- Wheatus

12) b- iamamiwhoami

13) Ceremony- New Order

14) Crazy on You- Heart

15) Just Like Heaven- The Cure

16) Invisible Shadow- Hollow Jan

17) Sweet and Tender Hooligan- Death Cab for Cutie

18) Fluorescent Adolescent (Cover)- Kate Nash

19) Lovers Carvings- Bibio

20) In Louisville at 7- Max Richter

21) I Summon You- Spoon

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Beauty

beauty.

1) My Love- Sia

2) Playground Love (Vibraphone Version)- Air

3) Quantock (Hand Cranked)- Bibio

4) Sea of Love- Cat Power

5) Lemonade- CocoRosie

6) Opus 23- Dustin O'Halloran

7) Protect Life- Eric Serra

8) Heavy in Your Arms- Florenence + The Machine

9) Hide and Seek- Imogen heap

10) When We Fall- Grouper

11) Great Fairy Fountain- Ocarina of Time

12) Tonight- Lykke Li

13) Anyone Else But You- Michael Cera And Ellen Page

14) Birdland- Patti Smith

15) Spanish Armada- Ratatat

16) Love is Good- The Shivers

Tundra Children

These guys have been walking around my head for months now. Once I was done with this quick experiment in damage control it came to my notice that they look very similar to the Pokemon Cubone. Maybe it's a relic from my childhood?

Either way, I like the idea that they just kind of roam around the vastness of nowhere. Looking back I wish I had payed more attention to the composition in respect to how big and overwhelming their surroundings would be. Maybe by like shrinking them down and showing more of the bleakness. But I hate having tiny people, I always want to be close to who I'm drawing! I'm in love with the subject of the picture, not really the picture as a whole. It's a personal problem :)

It's kind of nice to make something though. Even if this isn't the best I'm happy to actually be trying again. There's a lot of bitterness and confusion I had to get over when the last school year ended and lately I think theres been some personal steps in the right direction to fix that. The first, realizing that I you should make art first and think second! Stop focusing so much on limitations.

So much moaning and groaning! But don't give up on me yet I've been making presents for you guys!! Haha so stay tuned.

The Bee's Knees

Thousands of dollars of art education later and I'm qualified to draw mermaids for preschoolers :)

Awww, but you have much to learn, Young Grasshopper!

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What a Looker!

A Woman wearing a Hannya Mask. Hannya masks wymbolize the jealous woman in Japanese theatre. The color of the mask depends on the kind of jealousy harbored in her wicked heart.

The Woman demon is a really interesting archetype in Japanese fiction, movies etc. Though women arn't really encouraged to have a strong voice, there seems to be a fear of her suddenly using her quietness and fragility to lure the unsuspecting man to his downfall, which could include anything from financial ruin, a drawn out tortuous death or a simple broken heart. But what spawns this hateful creature that at one turn tittilates and the next terrifies?

Jealousy is a common trait associated with the fairer sex, and though one wishes it could be dismissed as a stereotype the abundance of catty behaviour, back stabbing and overall judgement that woman place on each other's shoulders begs to differ. But can we really expect anything else? Women havn't really had the luxery of living in a society that was very welcoming to their individual quirks. With the narrowing eye of beauty, girls are being taught that it's perfectly fine to rip another woman down on looks alone. Thus teaching men it's alright as well.

It's easy to state that it is the tyranny of man that has done this, but I suggest a more circular explanation. Though a patriarchal society may have sewn the seeds for woman on woman cannabalism it is the woman who choses to perpetuate the bahaviour. On the surface the primping and posturing is for the men, but the men seem, no offense, not as sensitive to the intricate stitching and design that women put into every aspect of their being. The cult of beauty is for the most part completely female. Beauty, or the feeling that one's lacking it is the root of most female jealousy.

Maybe it's just biological competition. Anyway, what this whole unstable mini essay was trying to say and was failing horribly at (due to my own lack of focusing ability lol) is that the Hannya mask though ugly and monsterous is just a mask. The most bullying, nasty woman you've deemed soul sucking, bitchy, crabby, cold, loose, ugly whatever term you use to reduce her to a one dimensional expendable entity is really just you trying to protect yourself. She's not wearing her mask, she's wearing yours.

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Phew! Now that that's out of the way here's the picture I did for Monster Channel Blog that some of my friends started. The theme was yokai. Tried using india ink in washes but unfortunately like always I had trouble with color potency. Am not very fond of it, especially since the mask looks almost goofy but what can ya do, better luck next time :)

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Sorry about the silence.

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